3 more days...

Today was a bittersweet day for me.  I made it official that I have only 3 more days in my career.  3 more days.

I've been struggling with whether to work up until my water breaks or whether to take some time off.  I've just been unsure about what I should do, and last night I decided with Keith's help that I should request from my boss that Friday, 2/25 be my last day of work.  I haven't taken more then three straight days of vacation in the past 3+ years, and goodness knows that motherhood does not come with vacation so we decided that I had earned some R&R time.

So, this morning I gathered some courage to approach my boss about a topic I haven't really wanted to make official yet.  I mean, don't get me wrong.  I want nothing more than anything to have this baby and to stay at home with this baby, BUT this is a big change for this girl who has been a career woman for about ten years now.  This is all I have known - getting up in the morning, getting ready, and heading to the office to sit behind my desk and fulfill my love affair with my computer and my love for details.  He asked me what I wanted to talk to him about, and I was able to tell him my "last day" just before my lip started to quiver, and the tears started flowing.  FLOWING.  It dawned on me what he and I were about to discuss and finalize...I was saying goodbye officially to my career.  Leaving my career, and leaving Zak's specifically means saying good bye to really good people.  Surprisingly I will miss the hard work, the challenges, occasional long hours, and even the difficult days, but more importantly, I will miss the people and the sense of achievement.

So, I cried a lot today.  I cried as I said good bye to something I have loved, and I cried for something that is upon me that I've wanted for a long time.  Tears of sadness and tears of JOY.  So after Friday, I'm ready to prop my feet up for a few days before I start my next my next career - being a mommy - something I have been working towards my whole life, and something the Good Lord created me to do.  So, come on, Baby Hollister; however, as ready as I am for you to come today, go ahead and give me a few days to rest and prepare for you!!!  We'll see you soon.