For those of you who know me well, you know that I tend to get caught up in the small details of planning everything about my life - what to cook, where to go, plan the family budget, when to head to Kroger, laundry, balance the checkbook, and clean, clean, clean. It is true. I am a self-proclaimed Martha. I'm trying to be a little more like Mary, tending to my Lord rather than the tedious cooking and cleaning. It is a life-long goal. My inner-Martha has allowed me to lose sight of the miracle of my Dad's presence in my life and the life of my child(ren (soon)) and my nieces and nephews.
It took a dear friend to point out Christmas morning that one real miracle of Christmas was watching my Dad chase after my son. "Deda, hold you." After she said that, life stood still for a few moments as I watched my son in my Dad's arms. What a gift. It might seem so small to many, but to this family, it is HUGE to watch a healthy man hold his grandson. It was NINE years ago that he was in the battle of his life, and so many prayer warriors and amazing nurses and doctors helped bring him back to a life where he is about to welcome his fifth and sixth grandchildren into this world...a world in which we didn't even think he would see his own children married.
Dad, I hope you keep better perspective than I have/do that you are a miracle and a blessing in our lives, and I am so grateful to have pictures like these and so many more blessed memories in my heart.
I vow not to focus on the negative of your illness so many years ago, but I vow to keep sight of the sound of your voice on my daily phone calls, or the email you send me, and especially on the big, warm hugs you always greet me with. We are blessed every day that you are in our lives, and may we not lose sight of it.
MSTH:
ReplyDeleteI thank you for the kind words although I am certainly more fortunate than you because you are a blessing in my life. I also at times fail to realize how fortuante I am and lose perspective of some of the many pleasures that I have with myi family. Holding Kirby does appear to be a small insignificant activity, but from our families view it is quite an accomplishment.
Although I have many thoughts, they are becoming difficult to put into words. At some point in the future, I will be better prepared to express my thoughts and feeling into words. My only thought right now is that I can not wait to see you and give you that big warm hug that you referred to.
Love,
A proud Dad/Deda